Getting What She Asked For.

This weekend, I had an intense, almost desperate need to be of service to my Master. Unfortunately I was far away from Rafe this weekend, just as I had been all last week and have continued to be this week. Of course, by no means, was I beyond the reach of my Dom.

As I described in my previous post, I asked Rafe how I could serve him. At the end of the exchange, he warned:

Careful what you ask for, slave! You might get it.

  • Saturday – Masturbate for two minutes without coming, with clothespins on my nipples and a finger up my ass. Twice, separated by an hour. And completion of the blog post before 10 pm.
  • Sunday – Leave a comment on another bdsm blog. Before leaving my apartment, masturbate again, same conditions as Saturday. Then in the afternoon, more masturbation – this time, the clothespins on my labia (I thought I might come at the first clamp), with permission to come after two minutes was up (thank you, Master!).
  • Monday – No panties today. At work, masturbate without coming for 90 seconds (this one came with a deadline). While at dinner with acquaintances, go to the restroom and insert a finger up my ass – no masturbating. At home, leave another comment on a blog.
  • Tuesday – Panties must be red (even this little command sent me tingling). He had another plan, but it wasn’t workable without access to a private bathroom (still don’t know what he had in mind for me).
  • Wednesday – Comment on two blogs while at work. Later in the evening, another order arrived: Put an ice cube in my pussy and let it melt there. This one almost got me into trouble, because I had no ice. I immediately filled a tray and put it in the freezer. Fortunately, I had enough time for the cubes to freeze at least half way. When I pushed one in, it suddenly become almost impossible not to come. I begged my Master to let me masturbate to climax. After a couple of minutes, he permitted it, telling me later, It is difficult to deny you when you beg. The orgasm was long and intense. It took me a minute to catch my breath.
  • Thursday – I was working from home. Late morning, a command: Strip naked and masturbate without coming for two minutes. After I was done, a follow up: Repeat every 90 minutes until 4 pm. A total of 4 times in 4.5 hours. My clit is a little tender now. And Rafe has decided “we” should do it one more time before bed.

So I’m getting what I asked for. Service to my Master. And the results?

I’ve been wet all week. I’m aching to be filled and fucked and tormented by my Master. I want desperately to be used by him, roughly and mercilessly. I want him to take all that he can, all that is his (which is all of me). I’m longing to delve more deeply into our bdsm experience than we have yet.

I see my darling Rafe tomorrow. Of course, as fate would have it, he can’t take me straight home to fuck me. We have plans. We will be side by side for hours before he takes me home to play.

I have already been given a rule for this weekend. Every time we enter the house, I am to ask if my Master would like me to suck his cock. Failure earns 10 strokes of the cane. I’ve already earned 8 – 5 for a delay in sending him pictures of myself in my running gear, 3 for improper capitalization of my last post (since fixed).

I can’t wait to see what else Rafe has in store.

– The Elegant Submissive

My comments this week

Her Rules.

It’s been just more than a year since Rafe and I began to explore this avenue of our sexuality together. The core element is power exchange – dominant/submissive, master/slave. It’s time for something new, something to tip the balance a little further.

Rafe gave me an assignment – pick four rules that will become standing expectations for me. These rules could be ones that we already practice. But this is the first formalization of them. The rules provide requirements and boundaries. They reinforce our roles, privileges, and responsibilities. The first three are rules that have been in place for some time. The fourth is my humble offering to him – I do hope he enjoys it.

  1. Any day she is not in her master’s presence, she must send a picture of herself, entirely nude, to him. This serves as a daily reminder that she belongs to him.
  2. As the societal and physical confines allow, she is to attend to her master’s needs and desires. She is his slave, and her duty is to serve her master diligently.
  3. She may only come if her master permits it. Her orgasms belong to her master, just as her body does.
  4. In private or in play spaces, she is to take an appropriately submissive position (to be defined by her master). This serves as a reminder, to both, of her willing submission to him.

– The Elegant Submissive